What they don’t tell you about being a parent

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If you’re anything like me, when you made the decision to become a parent then you did a whole lot of googling.

You read about the joys of being a parent. The first smiles, the first steps, the first words, hearing them say “I love you” for the first time.

You read about the trials of being a parent. The sleepless nights, the nappy blow outs, the tantrums, hearing them say “I hate you” for the first time.

But what you don’t read about, what no one tells you – is that it can be absolutely heartbreaking.

Your child is like a raw nerve walking around on the outside of your body, and every time they hurt, you hurt ten fold.

Every time they have a hard day, and you see the stress in their little eyes as they hold back the tears… your heart absolutely breaks and you have to keep it together and tell them it’s going to be okay. 

When they fall over and scratch their knee and you watch them trying not to overreact and holding back every instinct to swoop in, when you let them get up and dust themselves off because you know that they need to decide if they need you for themselves… it’s the hardest thing.

Being a parent, it’s incredible. Most days you go to bed feeling totally fulfilled about the little humans you are sharing this life with.

But some days you find yourself up at midnight worried about an event that upset your child that day, more worried than you would ever be if that excact thing happened to you.

Because your children are your rawest nerve, and no matter how much you protect them it’s inevitable that they are going to have shitty days.

And as their parent, it’s heartbreaking to watch. Even though that we know this is a part of life, an important part of life, it doesn’t make it any easier… 

Is your child a good sleeper?

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So, does your kid sleep through the night? What about getting them into bed, how does that go?

Don’t worry, it will all change in a heart beat anyway!

Us? Well I used to be able to set my watch by Oliver’s bed time. Every night he’d wake up at 3am, and resettle after a feed.

This was how it was from the time he was six weeks until he hit two years.

And then, he’d sleep all night. From 7pm to 7am. Straight to bed and straight asleep. No worries.

I was pretty bloody happy about it. And yes, I told all my friends about it. The good sleeper at the party, I thought the sleepless nights were something in our past.

Boy, was I wrong.

He stopped going to bed on his own. Then he started begging for 2-3 milks per night, so most nights he’d leak through his nappy and end up in our bed.

Then he just started sleeping in our bed.

How quickly my bright eyes were replaced with deep bags, and my bragging rights were replaced with complaints.

Oh, how I miss the days on the easy bedtime routine!

It’s only gotten worse in the past two years of sleepless nights, and it really puts a huge strain on each of us.

Three days ago, we decided it had to change. It’s not the first time we’ve decided this, but this time it has to work,

So, we decided to use a tried and true method: bribery.

I went down the street and purchased a whole heap of knock off ‘MySpace’ Lego (pretty sure they’re minecraft characters but it’s okay Ollie can’t read yet!) and told Oliver if he sleeps in his own bed each night, he gets a new toy.

So far, we haven’t given him any.

BUT, for the past 3 nights Oliver has fallen asleep in his own bed at 7pm. Wowsers. And, although he made his way into our bed each night, this morning he slept in until 6:30am.

That sure beats the 10pm-4am we’ve been running on recently.

Three nights of actually spending time with my husband. Three nights of sleep. Three days of a well slept child.

Oh gosh, I hope this lasts.

How do your kids sleep? And how dies that affect your life?

Bed time blues 

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If anyone ever told me the day my son was born that 3.5 years later he’d still be waking up during the night, I would have scoffed in their face.

Yet here I am!  Although he’s always been a night waker, he was actually really fantastic at going to bed. We’d just close the door on him with a bottle, and he’d be out like a light. I could set my clock by it.

Then James’ last deployment began. One bottle turned into two, three, sometimes four.

Then I started lying with him every night, whilst he had a bottle.

Then two bottles, then three- sometimes four.

Then one night his finger found its way up my nose, and it was like an off switch. He fell straight.asleep.

So that became a thing.

Every night. One bottle, two bottle, cuddles, “mummy, I pick-a your nose!”

It all got to be a bit much. And not just for me, but for Oliver too. There was a lot of panic involved in this new bedtime routine.

No milk- panic. I had a cold- panic. He’d wake up in the middle of the night without me there- nervous breakdown.

It was less than ideal.

The funny thing is, I knew better before I had Ollie. Ha, don’t we all! I was never going to let my son fall asleep with an aid. EVER.

Yet here I was, 2.5 years later in absolute bedtime hell. And it all happened so organically.

It all happened for that one night of good sleep that came so few a far between.

But do you know what got me through those nights of lying in bed with his little finger up my nose and his bladder full of milk? The thought that one day, in the distant future, he’ll absolutely cringe at the idea of cuddling me. I knew those nights wouldn’t last forever.

And you know what? They didn’t.

This year, Easter bunny took Oliver’s bottle back to his egg factory. And the doctor told Oliver that my nose gets too sore, so he couldn’t pick it any more. And we moved his room around so he can lie in his bed and see us on the couch so I no longer have to lie in bed with him to get him to sleep (most nights anyway.)

And just like that, the bed time blues are starting to pass.

Alas, my 3.5 year old is still a night waker. But now, when I hear his little foot steps creeping into our room at 3AM I whisper, ‘Mummy’s here’, and open my arms as he wiggles into bed with me. I love every moment of sharing my bed with him because, like everything, I just know it’s not going to last forever.

How does night time go at your house?


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05.04.2015- 12.04.2015

Oliver says:

Mummy is Cass, Daddy is James, Ollie is a babe.

Mummy check my muscles.
“Wow Oliver, so strong. Check mine.”
Hmmm… maybe eat some salad.


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09.03.2015 – 15.03.2015

The ‘we visited the dentist’ edition!


Oliver says:

Act your age.

No way, hosey!

Don’t eat my LUNCH!


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week 6

Oliver says:

Watching rage when a catchy song came on.

Swimming at the beach when it started to rain.
Mummy, I’m getting wet. I want to go home.

Mummy, you go to work? You see the Octonaughts?

Panda so small now, hair cut, just like me.


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Oliver says:

Me: Should we put Panda in the bin?
No, don’t put Panda in the bin. She’s very small.

Mummy, your hair. You look like a cow!

Runs into the spare room to escape bedtime.
Me: Ollie, what are you doing?
I just need to breath. 

Mid hair-cut, he starts removing his smock and declares:
Okay, it’s finished!

He’s been sick with a cold. We were trying to give him medication for his fever.
No, guys. I don’t need it. I feel *cough cough* better already.